And I Raged

And I raged

Tipping my anger over

Into your garbage dump

I seethed

With an ire tinged by bitter disappointment

For life had dealt me hard early blows

I was the wounded, owed so much

I reckoned myself special

So the world had to pay

I raged

Wanting it all

Willing to give nothing

If only

Everyone would see things my way

I could have it my way

All day

But no

So I raged

Gulping large quantities

Of blurred vision

I am an optical illusion

An allusion

To all the dreams of what I could be

Should be

If only the rage didn’t get in the way

But it did

Careening through other people’s lives

Making a mess of the simplest things

Of course

Because I knew only me

Cared only for 

Me me me me me

Raging and raving and screaming at you

And you and you and anyone

Who prevented me

From whatever I wanted that moment

That millisecond

How dare you

My God, I said

Because I thought it was my God

Not yours

Was all mine

And I raged

On and on

World without end

Until I said so