The Agony of Understanding

Oh desperate horrible pain of living
Oh clutching grabbing pain and heartache
Oh grasping angry tired confusion

Leave me alone
Let calm and contentment
Rule my life

Why the suffering of knowledge
Why the agony of awareness
Why the internal struggle of self

Oh to be numb to wisdom's dagger
Oh to be immune to lucidity's grip
Oh to be barricaded from life's eternal questions

Let me seek serenity not answers
Let me sleep in comfort not doubts
Let me walk away from the anxiety of asking

Oh let it be
Oh let me be
Oh oh oh