Sorry Mom

Mom
So sorry
About your insanity
Not your fault I know
I missed out on having a regular mom
I suffered some for it
Years and years of therapy
Constantly questioning my own sanity
Did I inherit your mad genes I wondered
Tortured memories of a childhood all wrong
But now I think of you
And what you missed
Like a good life
Like appreciating your sons growing up
Missing out on the loving marriage you had
Missing out on being grandma
You missed it all you poor woman
For you we're trapped in your crazy brain
You were surrounded and suffocated by your own paranoia
And you didn't even know it
I weep for you
Love you mom